Um...i think becos of he called me the day before yesterday, i lost control :'( . Why i said that? As when my fd asked me to add her in facebook, i dunno why i go and search for him. Last year, he sent request to me and asked me to add him as a friend, but i ignored. May be from my bottom of my heart, i really want to know how is he recently. When i type his name and click search, i found him, his updated pictures showed that he is holding a girl's hands. She is a beauty, where he always said that he needs a beautiful gf/wife. i remember he always said that i m not his cup of tea, but we've been together for 7 years. Um... i think i should say congradulation to him, he finally has a beauty gf.
At the first sight of this picture, my heart sank. "Shouldn't hv this feeling" i told myself, but i really feel uncomfortable. Sigh~ I asked myself why. But i definitely sure is " I dun love him anymore" so this uncomfortable shouldn't related to "still Love him, so upset". May be i am questioning myself, after broke up with him, almost 3 years, he already changed 2 gfs, has his own career. But me, still single, still yearn for freedom, still advocate “natural" (means no make-up, no artifical on face and body). Um... may be i really need to change myself a bit. Put make-up and dress up to strengthen my appearance.
After typing the above (about 10 mins time) all the uncomfortables are gone. Strange!!
Winki~~~ dun give up, add oil and A-za A-za Fighting!!!
18 years ago
