恋空 Koizora

きみは幸せでしたか?
とても幸せでした。

如果那天，我沒有遇見你。
我想，我就不會感到如此痛苦、如此悲傷、如此難過、如此令人悲從中來了。

但是，如果我沒有遇見你。
我也不會知道那麼歡愉、那麼溫柔、那麼相愛、那麼溫暖、那麼幸福的心情了……

噙著淚水的我，今天，依舊仰望著天空。仰望著天空。

"Heart" feeling

Um...i think becos of he called me the day before yesterday, i lost control :'( . Why i said that? As when my fd asked me to add her in facebook, i dunno why i go and search for him. Last year, he sent request to me and asked me to add him as a friend, but i ignored. May be from my bottom of my heart, i really want to know how is he recently. When i type his name and click search, i found him, his updated pictures showed that he is holding a girl's hands. She is a beauty, where he always said that he needs a beautiful gf/wife. i remember he always said that i m not his cup of tea, but we've been together for 7 years. Um... i think i should say congradulation to him, he finally has a beauty gf.

At the first sight of this picture, my heart sank. "Shouldn't hv this feeling" i told myself, but i really feel uncomfortable. Sigh~ I asked myself why. But i definitely sure is " I dun love him anymore" so this uncomfortable shouldn't related to "still Love him, so upset". May be i am questioning myself, after broke up with him, almost 3 years, he already changed 2 gfs, has his own career. But me, still single, still yearn for freedom, still advocate “natural" (means no make-up, no artifical on face and body). Um... may be i really need to change myself a bit. Put make-up and dress up to strengthen my appearance.

After typing the above (about 10 mins time) all the uncomfortables are gone. Strange!!
Winki~~~ dun give up, add oil and A-za A-za Fighting!!!

English

I found my English writing and oral skills are getting worst and worst. Upset~ Back HK almost 5 years, but really stay in HK only 1 year. The past four year, i kept travlling to worldwide, been lots of interesting places. Still speak in English, write in English. "English" for me, definitely not a problem cos I need to use it everyday. But now, after changed and worked in this company for a year. I speak rarely, write rarely in English. Contrarily, Chinese writing skills improved alot, Chinese-typing now can hv almost 35 words per minute. Schoen!!Ausgezeichnet~~ :P May be another reason for degeneracy in English is learning foreign languages. I spent lots of time to learn Japanese and German in this year working in HK. But its true, learning foreign languages are very interesting, but at the same time, my English get worst (:S). Sigh~

Gees~~~what should I do? Here is the only place for me to practice my English. I really need to "add oil"!!